I miss being too loud in the basement at bedtime and giggling when mom would stomp on the floor to tell us to shut up.
I miss him running outside to hug me when I pulled up in front of the house.
I miss hearing him yell "TINAAAAAAA" when I walked in the door.
I miss constantly texting movie quotes to each other.
I miss late night conversations that start out as jokes and turn into deep discussions.
I miss using code names to carry out secret missions like stealing cinnamon rolls from the hotel's continental breakfast.
I miss his anaconda SQUEEEEEEEEZE hugs.
I miss going to get shave ice and crying together.
I miss waking up to him jumping on my bed.
I miss his desperate English-related phone calls.
I miss going outside and playing games and laughing because I'm so bad at all of them.
I miss thinking something slightly inappropriate during family meetings and looking over at David and making wide eyes because we were both thinking the same thing.
I miss pretending I understood his football talk.
I miss cuddling on the couch.
I miss dance parties in the living room. And the driveway. And the hallway. And the grocery store. And the car. And the park. And the pool. And Disneyland.
I miss making stupid jokes and pointing at each other and going "HAAAAAA"
I miss blasting music in the car.
I miss talking to him about everything.
I miss having someone to cry with about anything.
I miss the moment after we cried when we just looked at each other and said "okay" and got up and knew that everything really would be okay now.
I MISS DAVID.
But I know he's where he should be. I can't survive a single day without the gospel, and he is the angel that's bringing that light to the people of South Africa.
Only 17 months to go.
So I am a Gamette... Robyns cousin. I have breast cancer. I loved your thoughts about chemo and your tips. Thanks for posting about this aweful cancer. My chemo day is march 17th!
ReplyDeleteHello hello! Any cousin of Robyn's is a friend of mine! In so sorry you have breast cancer. My thoughts are scattered and crazy but I hope they can help! If you have any questions for me, let me know! I know they're different kinds of chemo, but we can always help each other!
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